Tag: PhD

  • 25

    July 12 – this year would have been 25 years since my first date with PhD. That’s just an insane statement partly because I don’t feel that old, but we did meet when I was 22, and partly because we’ve been broken up for nearly 8 years. 2015 feels like so many, many life times…

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  • The Power of the Pole

    You may have heard this term ‘power of the pole’ mentioned by go-go dancers, strippers or other sex workers. I actually was a go-go dancer for a brief time in the summer of 1996. It WAS powerful – mentally, physically and sexually. Sexy clothes, dim lights, tantalizing grooves, seductive dancing. The eyeballs on me vying…

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  • The World Will Catch Me: Pre-Explosion

    A little over a year ago, I blew up my life. I was in a rebound relationship with a very nice guy, who I haven’t introduced but should. Let’s call him Mechanic. I’ll tell his story another time. That summer I was still so depressed after having broken up with PhD the previous fall. I…

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  • A Church, A Court Room and then Good-Bye

    If you are a Patsy Cline fan, like me, you probably know this song. I’ve loved her since I was a teenager. I found my mom’s old records in the basement, and listened over and over again while entertaining myself with some crazy art project like sewing or making paper. When I met PhD in…

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  • Sum of the Parts

    A few weekends ago depression hit me like a ton of bricks. Maybe it’s been the day after day of rain here that put me into a funk, but it was one I couldn’t seem to shake. I was driving to Nerdie’s house on my way to spend Saturday night with him and celebrate Super…

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  • Heartache is

    Heartache is. I never knew it was. It has lessened over the past two years when it first made itself known in my life. That’s when I knew something was wrong in my then 15 year relationship with PhD. 6’2″, 44, ginger, balding with hair trim close, big gym muscles he’s proud of making, wicked…

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