Category: Love

  • 25

    July 12 – this year would have been 25 years since my first date with PhD. That’s just an insane statement partly because I don’t feel that old, but we did meet when I was 22, and partly because we’ve been broken up for nearly 8 years. 2015 feels like so many, many life times…

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  • Thanks, Mom

    I watch a lot of true crime and prison shows. It’s always an exciting surprise when I click through episodes of Forensic Files and randomly come across one I have not yet seen. Spoiler alert…the husband did it. 60 Days In. Cold Case Files. Inside the World’s Toughest Prisons. Jailbirds. The First 48. I Am…

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  • The Power of the Pole

    You may have heard this term ‘power of the pole’ mentioned by go-go dancers, strippers or other sex workers. I actually was a go-go dancer for a brief time in the summer of 1996. It WAS powerful – mentally, physically and sexually. Sexy clothes, dim lights, tantalizing grooves, seductive dancing. The eyeballs on me vying…

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  • Ands, Not Ors

    I have been dating a new man for just shy of a month. I am naming him Duke because we both have an insatiable love of mayo. He so much so that he orders Duke’s online and keeps a healthy stash in his pantry. If you don’t know Duke’s mayo, it’s a Southern institution born…

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  • I’ll Most Likely Kill You In The Morning

    Remember the scene in Princess Bride when Wesley and Buttercup are walking through the Fire Swamp and he tells the story of how he became the Dread Pirate Roberts? The then Dread Pirate Roberts takes Wesley on as a valet and every night says: “Good night, Wesley. Good work. Sleep well. I’ll most likely kill…

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  • The World Will Catch Me: Pre-Explosion

    A little over a year ago, I blew up my life. I was in a rebound relationship with a very nice guy, who I haven’t introduced but should. Let’s call him Mechanic. I’ll tell his story another time. That summer I was still so depressed after having broken up with PhD the previous fall. I…

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  • A Church, A Court Room and then Good-Bye

    If you are a Patsy Cline fan, like me, you probably know this song. I’ve loved her since I was a teenager. I found my mom’s old records in the basement, and listened over and over again while entertaining myself with some crazy art project like sewing or making paper. When I met PhD in…

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  • Sum of the Parts

    A few weekends ago depression hit me like a ton of bricks. Maybe it’s been the day after day of rain here that put me into a funk, but it was one I couldn’t seem to shake. I was driving to Nerdie’s house on my way to spend Saturday night with him and celebrate Super…

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  • Is Orgasm the Point of Sex?

    Well, you might immediately answer babies is the point of sex, but I’m referring to sex for pleasure. Heck even if you are trying to make babies, sex is pleasurable. One of my new lovers, whose fun tale I will tell in a later post, recently confronted me about not having an orgasm through penetration. In…

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  • Heartache is

    Heartache is. I never knew it was. It has lessened over the past two years when it first made itself known in my life. That’s when I knew something was wrong in my then 15 year relationship with PhD. 6’2″, 44, ginger, balding with hair trim close, big gym muscles he’s proud of making, wicked…

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